I am extremely traumatized by Christian's doctors appointment today. And if I'm traumatized, Christian must be....well, whatever word means more then traumatized; if there is such a thing.

I told John last night that there was a possibility that Christian's staph infection would need to be drained today. As such, I asked that he accompany me to the appointment as I was sure that I would not be able to handle something like that on my own.

Sure enough, as soon as Dr. Zaglin saw Christian's infection he told a nurse outside of the room to prepare to have the infection drained. I could feel the color drain from my face. I immediately started to sweat and my heart started to race. One would think that I was the one going under the knife. I told John that he would need to hold Christian during the procedure.

Christian was taken to the observation table. His pants were taken off and his diaper pulled down. He was injected with a numbing agent which sent him reeling. At that point I focused my attention on Manny who was doing a good job of keeping me distracted (before Christian received the shot I warned Manny that Christian was going to start crying. I didn't want him to think that something was wrong).

I knew immediately when Dr. Zaglin started draining the infection. A loud cry filled the air, followed by several seconds of silence. Christian took a deep breath, saturated his lungs with oxygen and pierced the room with a blood curdling scream. It is the worst sound I've ever heard. I could hear his voice starting to shake. Part of me wanted to jump up and save my child. However, I knew what was taking place was necessary, so I turned inward and started to stare at the floor.

Several moments later I looked over to see how things were going. John and Dr. Zaglin did a good job of blocking Christian, but I caught a brief glimpse and saw dark red blood streaking down the side of his stomach. I didn't look back again.

Moments later Dr. Zaglin said he was done. He quickly got a culture swab and bandaged up the wound. John changed his diaper while Dr. Zaglin filled me in: Christian had several infected pockets under the surface of his skin. Each of the pockets was punctured and drained. Dr. Zaglin was able to remove a lot of infected puss and blood from those pockets, and his infection should start looking better. Tonight, after a warm soaking bath, we're suppose to gently put pressure on the wound to drain it further - I'm not looking forward to that.

FYI...we got results back from John's culture swab from his staph infection and it was MRSA.